‘Tis the Season

It is the season.   One that we celebrate the birth of Jesus Christ.   But also one where we gather with our loved ones and celebrate the moment.   But what if you can not celebrate with the one you love?  What if the one you love does not believe in Jesus Christ?

For those of you who follow this blog, you know my miserable and ridiculous story.   Part of me wants to delete the blog.  Part of me wants to keep it forever.

I wonder sometimes if I will ever forget about Jack.  I wonder sometimes if I really want to.   And I wonder if he ever thinks about me.  And if he does, does he hurt? Or does he smile? Or do I still make him sick?

Does that ever go away?

Fuck Reality

the weather this weekend was beautiful
the thunder rolled
and the lightning struck
the rain hid my tears
I didn’t give a fuck

the company this weekend was amazing
he held my hand
and he kissed my lips
but it wasn’t his hands
I felt on my hips

the dream this weekend was comforting
you were here with me
and you touched my face
when I opened my eyes
I still felt your embrace

the reality this weekend was ..
it was as it always is
it was reality
fuck reality

Random Opponent

I deleted your profile hoping that one night when I selected a random opponent you would connect with me again.

Randomly.
By chance.
Or just because.

A-to-Z Challenge – The Letter W

When ….

When you are looking down
from your pedestal
remember it was me
who put you up there

When you are bending down
to pick up your child
remember it was me
who sacrificed so you did not have to

When you are laying down
and dreaming of your happiness
remember it was me
who made you laugh and smile

When you are just down
and don’t know where to turn
remember … it was you
who walked away and didn’t look back

A-to-Z Challenge – The Letter T

Two arcs in time
Trust massacred
Thoughts twisted
Time wasted